I am tired. Today, my brain just hurts as I type this. Why? I'm not really sure, but it probably has something to do with not sleeping a full 8 hours in who knows how long. But I'm not going to complain; my 3 boy are worth every sleepless night.
These little guys have kept me on my toes lately. I love these different stages, but the challenge of discipline for a 3.5 year old & a 2 year old is DAUNTING to say the least. There have been those days recently when my hubs & I look at each other at the end of the day and without a word understand the expression on the other's face: EXHAUSTED.
|**Do not worry, he did NOT fall. although I know this looks precarious**|
We are able to get out for an adventure every now & again. It is our favorite thing to do as a family. Since my hubs & I rarely go on dates alone anymore, I like to call these 'family dates' where we go & do & eat out. The car is a magical zone for us where the boys are almost always quiet & content. I know that's not always the case, but for the majority of the time, especially when we are tired, going on a drive is a gift.
|Ft. Clinch, Fernandina Beach, FL|
I think that being tried makes all of life harder. I know for my boys, my number 1 go-to for how to fix toddler tantrums is sleep. early bedtimes. in James' case, naptime is a battle I'm willing to fight for our sanity's sake. I know they struggle to have any emotional capacity at all when they are tired or hungry. They are 'normally' very sweet boys. wild & crazy. but absolutely the apple of my eye! If you see or hear them when they are tired or hungry, you would never.guess. how sweet their temperaments truly are.
|telling each other secrets. Hayden hasn't quite understood how this works.|
For myself, running around tired makes my life fodder for the smallest spark to set it on fire. Suddenly, everything is a BIG DEAL and all my reactions are extreme. It is such an exercise in patience & the Lord's refining fire for me to go through my day bone-tired and still be kind & encouraging & willing to enter into their play. It's easy to skip story time or rush through lunch so I can have a break. It's hard to feel the burn in your eyes & not give into anger - but remain quick to listen & slow to speak.
"My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry." James 1:19
|favorite part: secret passage!|
One thing that I absolutely.love. that I have learned from Ann Voskamp is that, "Life is not an emergency." I laugh at myself for living my life like it WAS an emergency when James was a baby. Every immediate need could be considered 'crisis' and I think how much I've been challenged there. I know now, after having more kids, that needs can only be met one.at.a.time. Life is not an emergency. Meet each need, with a cheerful heart, without expectation of perfection.
|watching the ships come in|
Isn't it beautiful how in our weakness, His strength can shine through better? Maybe in my own tired state, I am able to lean on Jesus more. Maybe it is blessing disguised as curse. Thank you Lord for absolutely wearing.me.out. Fill me up with more of you?!